As I am sitting here tonight trying to figure out why it is that my job never seems to be complete, I realize that I always take on more than I can chew. After talking to Andy tonight, I see that there are other people out there like me that are driven to succeed. I can tell that he is very driven too, and I like that. I am proud of the fact that I am 24 and have my Master’s degree and a job. I am proud that my degree is from a prestigious school.
Though I want to, I am starting to realize that I can’t take everything on, and sometimes things just have to be let go. Or, better yet, just not worried about. I need to learn that I can only do my best, and that is all that I can do.
I am finding that the first year teaching is perfectly coined the term “survival mode.” It truly is survival. I would love to get more than one day ahead. I would love to not have to work until 5pm every night, go home, and work several more hours. But, I am dedicated to what I do, and I want to do a good job. It is against my conscience to drop the ball.
With that said, I want to take a minute to give me some ME time. I need that time alone for reflection to realize what I can do better and how I can do to grow. So, cheers! Here is to my goal of balancing working hard and authentic reflection.
